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You have just landed on Coolwatermelon's blog. Not just another blog, it's COOLWATERMELON'S blog. A very, very special blog indeed.
Coolwatermelon hopes to:
*complete a front somersault!
*head touch butt
*get and design a nice NAFA Grade 13 Dance tee/jacket
*new handphone
*309'09 be a nice class
*be a nice person
*be a happy person
Coolwatermelon hopes to:
*complete a front somersault!
*head touch butt
*get and design a nice NAFA Grade 13 Dance tee/jacket
*new handphone
*309'09 be a nice class
*be a nice person
*be a happy person
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Jezamine
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Lin Sha
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Ming Zhen
Nicole
Samantha
Shu Fang
Susanna
Xiaohan
Xu Yue
Yi Jing
Yijun
Yingxin
Yumo
Yuxin
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Xuedi
Yixian
Zen
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Fiona
Hern Hern
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Jieyi
Lianghui
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Shermaine
Sue En
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Florence
Hui Min
Kailin
Karen
Li Min
Mui Sock
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Rui Min
Seow Wen
Siying
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Friday, November 30, 2007
Hullo everyone!
I am back!
Today I feel better!
Probably because I ate 5 chocolates...
Ok never mind.
Thank you so much for showering your concern on me!
I feel so honoured.
And really touched!
Some people still care about me!
Especially Jingyi, dot-dots(Meizhen) and Emily, and Lauren too!
Love ya lots!
Well, I guess I shouldn't be so pessimistic about my life.
If I wallow in self-pity everyday,
I'll just get more and more upset!
So I've decided to be clever for once and say
"HECK CARE LA!!!"
Although I may still get unhappy occassionally,
I'll try to sort out my feelings quickly
and be myself again.
I'll tell myself that
there are lots of people out there much worse than me.
And I'll emphathise with them.
I have many good friends who understand me.
I am contented with that already.
I'll be forgiving.
I'll be more broad-minded.
I'll be more understanding.
*P.S Have you noticed that my posts these days always end with 3 sentences that start with the same words? Like today is "I'll be..." Well, I also don't know why. Maybe it's some new style of writing I've adopted. Hooray for S.L writing style!!! Ok joking. Probably someone long before me adopted that already.
*P.P.S Anyway, after seeing this, you'll know that I am okay already. Once again, thank you all so much for being my pillar of support! Love you all!!!
I am back!
Today I feel better!
Probably because I ate 5 chocolates...
Ok never mind.
Thank you so much for showering your concern on me!
I feel so honoured.
And really touched!
Some people still care about me!
Especially Jingyi, dot-dots(Meizhen) and Emily, and Lauren too!
Love ya lots!
Well, I guess I shouldn't be so pessimistic about my life.
If I wallow in self-pity everyday,
I'll just get more and more upset!
So I've decided to be clever for once and say
"HECK CARE LA!!!"
Although I may still get unhappy occassionally,
I'll try to sort out my feelings quickly
and be myself again.
I'll tell myself that
there are lots of people out there much worse than me.
And I'll emphathise with them.
I have many good friends who understand me.
I am contented with that already.
I'll be forgiving.
I'll be more broad-minded.
I'll be more understanding.
*P.S Have you noticed that my posts these days always end with 3 sentences that start with the same words? Like today is "I'll be..." Well, I also don't know why. Maybe it's some new style of writing I've adopted. Hooray for S.L writing style!!! Ok joking. Probably someone long before me adopted that already.
*P.P.S Anyway, after seeing this, you'll know that I am okay already. Once again, thank you all so much for being my pillar of support! Love you all!!!
Thursday, November 29, 2007
My apologies for the previous post.
I was feeling very upset then.
But I ain't feeling happy now.
Our CCA is going to be 3 times per week next year.
I don't know how I am going to survive.
I wish I could scream in their faces.
There are many expectations I have to meet next year:
1) Not failing any of my subjects (esp. Japanese, Maths and Humanities)
2) Not skipping any time of my CCA
3) Be loads better at dancing so I don't feel so inferior among my CCA mates
4) Stop being so wild or I get stripped off PSL
5) Stop thinking too much about the opinions of other people regarding me so I can be more happy
6) Get more hardworking in order to meet all my expectations
I am tired.
Tired of meeting up with other people's expectations.
Tired of always helping her when she is the most ungrateful.
Tired of acting unbothered when she insults me.
Tired of being the one who always get hurt.
Tired of getting upset over every small detail but still tries to act happy.
I was feeling very upset then.
But I ain't feeling happy now.
Our CCA is going to be 3 times per week next year.
I don't know how I am going to survive.
I wish I could scream in their faces.
There are many expectations I have to meet next year:
1) Not failing any of my subjects (esp. Japanese, Maths and Humanities)
2) Not skipping any time of my CCA
3) Be loads better at dancing so I don't feel so inferior among my CCA mates
4) Stop being so wild or I get stripped off PSL
5) Stop thinking too much about the opinions of other people regarding me so I can be more happy
6) Get more hardworking in order to meet all my expectations
I am tired.
Tired of meeting up with other people's expectations.
Tired of always helping her when she is the most ungrateful.
Tired of acting unbothered when she insults me.
Tired of being the one who always get hurt.
Tired of getting upset over every small detail but still tries to act happy.
Friday, November 23, 2007
I'm falling...
falling...
falling...
down into an abyss of darkness
I open my mouth
No sound comes out
Hurt
Depression
Jealousy
Selfishness
Overwhelm my vulnerable shell
I try to maintain the smile
Engraved on my face
But behind the mask
I'm crying
The tears won't ever stop
I want to stay happy
And want others to be happy
I can't take it anymore
The me inside is struggling to get out
I feel it
I try to restrain it
The uglyness
I don't want to see
I fight back
It's too strong
I want to scream
Why is life so unfair
I get no answer
I suddenly feel so alone
So naked
Stripped of all clothing
I feel so cold
Shivering
Teeth chattering
No one comes to my aid
But no matter what I won't give up
I lie to myself
That I am strong
I put up a brave facade
Hoping someone would come and tear off the fake mask
I wait
Accompanied by the web of lies I've weaved
The cruel reality smashes my face
The blood
Grief
I feel so alone
The me I'll never understand
falling...
falling...
down into an abyss of darkness
I open my mouth
No sound comes out
Hurt
Depression
Jealousy
Selfishness
Overwhelm my vulnerable shell
I try to maintain the smile
Engraved on my face
But behind the mask
I'm crying
The tears won't ever stop
I want to stay happy
And want others to be happy
I can't take it anymore
The me inside is struggling to get out
I feel it
I try to restrain it
The uglyness
I don't want to see
I fight back
It's too strong
I want to scream
Why is life so unfair
I get no answer
I suddenly feel so alone
So naked
Stripped of all clothing
I feel so cold
Shivering
Teeth chattering
No one comes to my aid
But no matter what I won't give up
I lie to myself
That I am strong
I put up a brave facade
Hoping someone would come and tear off the fake mask
I wait
Accompanied by the web of lies I've weaved
The cruel reality smashes my face
The blood
Grief
I feel so alone
The me I'll never understand
Thursday, November 8, 2007
Hello everyone! The following post is dedicated to 101'07. I know some of you won't ever read this, but I just want to tell you how much you mean to me. I know some of my remarks are very short you know how much I adore each and every one of you!
*Yj, you wouldn't mind if I use your idea of saying something to everyone in class right? I know you are a very generous person :)
Ming Zhen: Thanks so much for providing us with your delicious japanese pancakes when we are hungry! You should seriously open a shop selling the pancakes. It should be called "Murdogg's Rock'n'Roll Pancakes"! Okay, I know I'm lame, but let me give you a suggestion: Stop slacking! I will be devastated if I don't see the deranged Ming Zhen in Sec 3... or maybe I will be the one who gets kicked out. Never mind, forget it. Anyway, all the best to you!
Dorothy: 多肉体, I think you should eat more! My first impression of you was" Stickman", and I called you that in my head before learning your name. Lols! I really enjoyed the times when you were my deskmate!
Emily: woots! 爱美丽，你除了爱美丽，你还爱我吗？Jkjk! I am 101% straight, don't get the wrong idea. Anyway, you are a very nice person and very fun to be with. Win more kungfu medals and let 101'07 be proud of you!
P.S You still haven't given me your dad's autograph.
Eunice: Eu* are really *nice*! And kind! And cute too! Your super muscle arms can tear me apart, you know.
P.S You still owe me 2 FBTs leh. (jkjk)
Hui Pin: Actually you look more like a cat，so it's better if you are called 猫猫! I don't look like a feline in any way, do I? You are like a mummy cat, consoling yor baby cat, Meizhen. buahahahaha. Okay, no offence lah. Anyway, best wishes to you! ~.~
Grace: The 超级 guai kia. I really hope you can give me some of your brain cells to me! Tell me if you think your brain is getting too big. I wouldn't mind if you give me some of your brain.
Yijun: The cute hamster professor. "Now, let me ask you a question," how do you manage to get sooooooo high marks for everything? You are really a genius stuck in the wrong class aren't you?
Lisa He: HSM maniac. Smart kid. Kind girl. I am really blessed to have such a great friend like you!
Shufang: Violent homicidal suspect on the loose in 101'07. You've got a pretty face but your actions don't quite really match! Be more demure! But you are really good with computers leh! Got time, teach me some can?
Jacqueline: The quiet treasurer who hides all the money. The girl with beautiful black silky hair cascading down on her shoulders. Well, I don't really know you but that's the impression I get. A nice nice nice girl. That's all I can say.
Jezamine: Judo babe who rips all her opponents into shreds. Crazy artistic girl who loves My Lucky Star and can't stop drawing the characters in it. Clever kid who aces in all her exams. You've got a great personality though!
Wan Xin: ERM... I just hope you can do some self reflection , but don't study too much for exams. Let's not make any judgments.
Cher Yee: I like your laughter, it's really contagious! It brightens up my day too! Keep laughing your head off!
Jing Ting: Moo-moo said the cow. The cute little calf! Very sweet girl indeed!
Lisa Lee: So courteous and polite! Shufang, 跟人家学一学嘛！
Wei Qing: Flexobabe! So pro huh! Guai kia everyday also go CCA, I want to skip also cannot lor! Sigh! But I still like you though!
Jin Yi: 超级飞毛腿! Run, girl, run! I will support you till the end!
Jing Wen: So responsible! I feel really bad being a PSL when you are not... Never mind, you can still be a councillor in Sec 3 right? I wish you all the best! And thanks so much for all the stuff you've done for the class!
Samantha: NICE! NICE! NICE! CUTE! CUTE! CUTE! I can't think of any other words to describe you!
Lin Sha: Difficult to predict! Cool. Really nice. Manly but lovely.
Mei Zhen: You are not really acbc now, right? Also really emotional and easily influenced. But you are supportive and loyal to friends and I like you for that. Believer in horoscope and ever babbling about the charasteristics of a certain horoscope. But I still like you although you are weird. Friends forever!
Natalie: The cool, nice, smart and weird durian head. Cute girl.
Nicole: You are so hardworking, give yourself a break lah! And don't study too hard can? Spare a thought for stupid people like me!
Yumo: Sumo the sumo! Lovely girl. One of my oldest friends. Hope our friendship will blossom!
Su-An: The ever so serious bookworm who got its head stuck in a book. You need me to help you get out? A nice girl though.
Ying Xin: 周杰伦 with long eyelashes. blink*blink* Quiet and cool, nobody knows what is hiding in your sleeve. haha.
Susanna: Ruka-pyon! Lols! Such a sweet little girl! I really do hope you find your camera so you can put all my pictures up on your blog! (jkjk lah) Anyway, God bless you!
Jing Yi: My super nice ex-deskmate! I really didn't know you were so emotional until that day. And you also made me so touched by doing all those stuff! I love you, girl! Friends forever!
Xu Yue: Gluttonous like me, high-five! Eat! Eat! Eat! Yays! I really had fun when we were advertising for our stall during Choral and Drama night! I am really grateful to you helping me out!
Yu Xin: The kiasu smart guai kia nerd who says she isn't. Bleh. And stop pinching my face, will ya?
Ke Er: Sexy lips Ah-Bi 姐! Go boarding school next year ok? Thanks so much for all the stuff you have helped me!
Jessy: You should really pay more attention to 女人我最大 because they are really teaching you stuff to make your skin better. Good luck in 美白ing! Another thing: Don't think too much what other people think of you, just be yourself! You are loyal to your friends and I like you because of that. Way to go, princess!
Xiaohan: Your 大道理s really makes stupid people like me to think more. And it's really surprising to discover that although we may be born on the same day, we are so different in personalities and characters! Anyway, you rock!
Yijing: I have already said the things I wanted to say. I hope our friendship can last forever!
I know I am truly blessed to have all of you by my side! I love all of you!
*Yj, you wouldn't mind if I use your idea of saying something to everyone in class right? I know you are a very generous person :)
Ming Zhen: Thanks so much for providing us with your delicious japanese pancakes when we are hungry! You should seriously open a shop selling the pancakes. It should be called "Murdogg's Rock'n'Roll Pancakes"! Okay, I know I'm lame, but let me give you a suggestion: Stop slacking! I will be devastated if I don't see the deranged Ming Zhen in Sec 3... or maybe I will be the one who gets kicked out. Never mind, forget it. Anyway, all the best to you!
Dorothy: 多肉体, I think you should eat more! My first impression of you was" Stickman", and I called you that in my head before learning your name. Lols! I really enjoyed the times when you were my deskmate!
Emily: woots! 爱美丽，你除了爱美丽，你还爱我吗？Jkjk! I am 101% straight, don't get the wrong idea. Anyway, you are a very nice person and very fun to be with. Win more kungfu medals and let 101'07 be proud of you!
P.S You still haven't given me your dad's autograph.
Eunice: Eu* are really *nice*! And kind! And cute too! Your super muscle arms can tear me apart, you know.
P.S You still owe me 2 FBTs leh. (jkjk)
Hui Pin: Actually you look more like a cat，so it's better if you are called 猫猫! I don't look like a feline in any way, do I? You are like a mummy cat, consoling yor baby cat, Meizhen. buahahahaha. Okay, no offence lah. Anyway, best wishes to you! ~.~
Grace: The 超级 guai kia. I really hope you can give me some of your brain cells to me! Tell me if you think your brain is getting too big. I wouldn't mind if you give me some of your brain.
Yijun: The cute hamster professor. "Now, let me ask you a question," how do you manage to get sooooooo high marks for everything? You are really a genius stuck in the wrong class aren't you?
Lisa He: HSM maniac. Smart kid. Kind girl. I am really blessed to have such a great friend like you!
Shufang: Violent homicidal suspect on the loose in 101'07. You've got a pretty face but your actions don't quite really match! Be more demure! But you are really good with computers leh! Got time, teach me some can?
Jacqueline: The quiet treasurer who hides all the money. The girl with beautiful black silky hair cascading down on her shoulders. Well, I don't really know you but that's the impression I get. A nice nice nice girl. That's all I can say.
Jezamine: Judo babe who rips all her opponents into shreds. Crazy artistic girl who loves My Lucky Star and can't stop drawing the characters in it. Clever kid who aces in all her exams. You've got a great personality though!
Wan Xin: ERM... I just hope you can do some self reflection , but don't study too much for exams. Let's not make any judgments.
Cher Yee: I like your laughter, it's really contagious! It brightens up my day too! Keep laughing your head off!
Jing Ting: Moo-moo said the cow. The cute little calf! Very sweet girl indeed!
Lisa Lee: So courteous and polite! Shufang, 跟人家学一学嘛！
Wei Qing: Flexobabe! So pro huh! Guai kia everyday also go CCA, I want to skip also cannot lor! Sigh! But I still like you though!
Jin Yi: 超级飞毛腿! Run, girl, run! I will support you till the end!
Jing Wen: So responsible! I feel really bad being a PSL when you are not... Never mind, you can still be a councillor in Sec 3 right? I wish you all the best! And thanks so much for all the stuff you've done for the class!
Samantha: NICE! NICE! NICE! CUTE! CUTE! CUTE! I can't think of any other words to describe you!
Lin Sha: Difficult to predict! Cool. Really nice. Manly but lovely.
Mei Zhen: You are not really acbc now, right? Also really emotional and easily influenced. But you are supportive and loyal to friends and I like you for that. Believer in horoscope and ever babbling about the charasteristics of a certain horoscope. But I still like you although you are weird. Friends forever!
Natalie: The cool, nice, smart and weird durian head. Cute girl.
Nicole: You are so hardworking, give yourself a break lah! And don't study too hard can? Spare a thought for stupid people like me!
Yumo: Sumo the sumo! Lovely girl. One of my oldest friends. Hope our friendship will blossom!
Su-An: The ever so serious bookworm who got its head stuck in a book. You need me to help you get out? A nice girl though.
Ying Xin: 周杰伦 with long eyelashes. blink*blink* Quiet and cool, nobody knows what is hiding in your sleeve. haha.
Susanna: Ruka-pyon! Lols! Such a sweet little girl! I really do hope you find your camera so you can put all my pictures up on your blog! (jkjk lah) Anyway, God bless you!
Jing Yi: My super nice ex-deskmate! I really didn't know you were so emotional until that day. And you also made me so touched by doing all those stuff! I love you, girl! Friends forever!
Xu Yue: Gluttonous like me, high-five! Eat! Eat! Eat! Yays! I really had fun when we were advertising for our stall during Choral and Drama night! I am really grateful to you helping me out!
Yu Xin: The kiasu smart guai kia nerd who says she isn't. Bleh. And stop pinching my face, will ya?
Ke Er: Sexy lips Ah-Bi 姐! Go boarding school next year ok? Thanks so much for all the stuff you have helped me!
Jessy: You should really pay more attention to 女人我最大 because they are really teaching you stuff to make your skin better. Good luck in 美白ing! Another thing: Don't think too much what other people think of you, just be yourself! You are loyal to your friends and I like you because of that. Way to go, princess!
Xiaohan: Your 大道理s really makes stupid people like me to think more. And it's really surprising to discover that although we may be born on the same day, we are so different in personalities and characters! Anyway, you rock!
Yijing: I have already said the things I wanted to say. I hope our friendship can last forever!
I know I am truly blessed to have all of you by my side! I love all of you!
Monday, November 5, 2007
Today is Monday.
Which means I have to go to 3rd Language Centre.
Dread...
Sigh.
Today is only the first few days of holidays.
I am missing everyone already.
Sob*
Wednesday is Fundraising and I will be able to meet everyone.
It's two days away.
48 hours.
So long.
So bored.
I don't want to bring rockmelon.
Because:
1) It is damn expensive, the cheapest is already like $8.
2) It is damn big, too heavy to carry to school.
3) It tastes almost the same as honeydew, which someone else is bringing.
4) It is damn difficult to find, I don't see any rockmelons in NTUC or Cold Storage.
5) Most importantly, I don't want to bring it.
Can I just bring some small fruits like pears or kiwis or something?
Rawr.
Holidays are so boring...
Other than going to the library, reading some crappy books, going online, surfing internet, there's nothing much to do already.
Can we please go out sometime?
I am seriously dying of boredom.
I don't want to waste my life away just doing these meaningless stuff.
But I am to lazy to do any thing else.
Grrr.
Oh yes, I just got myself a sister.
She called Zhou Yi, from Ningbo.
She my foster sister actually.
There's this foster daughter scheme for overseas scholars here in NY, my mom winded up as a foster parent, and the school allocated her to our family.
She's going to join the school next year and be in Sec 3.
She quite pretty, but a little shy.
A nice girl.
I hope I can get along with her.
I am going to treat her like a sister I never had, since I'm the only child.
I am pretty much looking forward to getting to know her! <$BlogItemAuthor$> flying away on<$BlogItemDateTime$>
Which means I have to go to 3rd Language Centre.
Dread...
Sigh.
Today is only the first few days of holidays.
I am missing everyone already.
Sob*
Wednesday is Fundraising and I will be able to meet everyone.
It's two days away.
48 hours.
So long.
So bored.
I don't want to bring rockmelon.
Because:
1) It is damn expensive, the cheapest is already like $8.
2) It is damn big, too heavy to carry to school.
3) It tastes almost the same as honeydew, which someone else is bringing.
4) It is damn difficult to find, I don't see any rockmelons in NTUC or Cold Storage.
5) Most importantly, I don't want to bring it.
Can I just bring some small fruits like pears or kiwis or something?
Rawr.
Holidays are so boring...
Other than going to the library, reading some crappy books, going online, surfing internet, there's nothing much to do already.
Can we please go out sometime?
I am seriously dying of boredom.
I don't want to waste my life away just doing these meaningless stuff.
But I am to lazy to do any thing else.
Grrr.
Oh yes, I just got myself a sister.
She called Zhou Yi, from Ningbo.
She my foster sister actually.
There's this foster daughter scheme for overseas scholars here in NY, my mom winded up as a foster parent, and the school allocated her to our family.
She's going to join the school next year and be in Sec 3.
She quite pretty, but a little shy.
A nice girl.
I hope I can get along with her.
I am going to treat her like a sister I never had, since I'm the only child.
I am pretty much looking forward to getting to know her! <$BlogItemAuthor$> flying away on